It is 10 p.m. in the dorm room and I am sitting on the bed staring at my book bag. I completed a full days work in the Jammin’ Java but somehow my bookbag is haunting me, telling me there is more work to be done. I sit and stare in silence with the feeling of anxiousness in my chest because I had already lost six hours of sleep from doing homework the last two days. Suddenly I decide enough is enough. I look at my book bag, kick it to the curb, and give it the middle finger. I grab my keys, leave everything including my phone and take a walk. While walking I focus on what’s important in life, why I am here, and all the tiny little things I accomplish in a day.
I recently read a quote from a blog, The Boudoir Belle, which stated, “self-love is the greatest middle finger of all time.” I found this relatable because in college it is hard to find time to think for myself. As a college student, it is easy to become stuck in the pattern of thinking for my professors. However, in my story of self love, I have found the importance of finding time to reflect on my accomplishments and identity. There are alot of college nights where my bookbag and I tango about whether or not I will explore the deep ventures of my textbooks. Although most nights my bookbag wins, it is still important to know when I need to use my middle finger and kick the bookbag to the curb.
The night I took a walk I had to remember what I accomplished. A part of self love is being able to identify the tiny victories and remembering you are the most important. Self love is the greatest middle finger of all time because it tells the world that you are important and you have the ability accomplish goals, while remaining who you are.
The art of having self love comes in many shapes, forms, and sizes. Self love to me is having nights where I say no to work and yes to mindlessly thinking to myself. Finding the way you accomplish the need for self love is important to understanding oneself. Therefore, find the time to use your finger and kick your bookbag to the curb. Find the way self love works for you!
Source: The Boudoir Belle